I Gotta Feel This

Pain in my heart, feeling torn apart Growing up too fast, in the trailer park
Late nights, wondering why this life hard Struggles and setbacks, they left me scarred
Every obstacle I face, it makes me stronger Pushing through the pain, can't wait no longer
My pain runs deep, buried in my soul But I push through and let my story unfold

Growing up, family was all that I knew
Through the ups and the downs and all the abuse
Every time I think about it, man, it gives me chills
Thinking about the times and why the world ill
Suck it up, push it down, ain't nothing but pain
These are the things that will leave you chained
Then I wonder how I never really learned to cry
This is all your fault, time to say goodbye
Trauma got me thinking on suicide
And all the 99 different ways that I could die
I get lost in the pain, it's so hard to breathe
Broken life is all I really see
But I rise from the ashes with hatred and malice
Look around me, all I see is the crashes
Can't get away from the voices in my head
Man, I wish I could kill you, but you already dead

Pain in my heart, feeling torn apart
Growing up too fast in the trailer park
Late nights wondering why life's so hard
Struggles and setbacks has left me scarred
Every obstacle I face, it makes me stronger
Pushing through the pain, can't wait no longer
My pain runs deep, buried in my soul
But I push through and let my story unfold

Feel the pain, yeah, I've been through it all
My heart being broken like a shattered glass wall
Lost loved ones, they gone way too soon
The pain in my chest, feeling like a big boom
All this death around, yeah, gotta stay strong
Gotta rise above, I gotta move on
Through the pain, rise a phoenix
in the darkness Find uniqueness from the ashes, take a breath
Face the face, with the depths yeah
I never got to be a kid
Taking care of ma is what I did
I ain't trippin' y'all, that's for real
Went to school, came home, and I really had to make a meal
Making sure my brother fed
Making sure they all had their meds
Mind racing when I went to bed
Then I do it proper with this pen and a pair of bullets to my head

Pain in my heart, feeling torn apart
Growing up too fast in the trailer park
Late nights wondering why life's so hard
Struggles and setbacks they left me scarred
Every obstacle I face, it makes me stronger
Pushing through the pain, can't wait no longer
My pain runs deep, buried in my soul
But I push through and let my story unfold

Pain in my heart, feeling torn apart (oh so much pain)
Growing up too fast in the trailer park (in the trailer park)
Late nights wondering why life's so hard (why's this life so hard)
Struggles and setbacks they left me scarred (left me scarred)
Every obstacle I face, it makes me stronger (I wanna be stronger)
Pushing through the pain, can't wait no longer (can't wait no longer)
My pain runs deep, buried in my soul (so much pain)
But I push through and let my story unfold (let my story unfold)

I gotta feel this
I guess I gotta feel this