Stella's PAATH

Got some questions for myself, I'm askin' for help
Questions for myself, I'm askin' for help
I'm over you
How old are you?

I trusted you, you told me to
How dare you
We been there, we done that
So leave it in the past

Stop the lookin' back
You can't retrace your tracks
You loved and you got burned
But you live and you learn

To not do the same shit
Put no trust in any bitch
You got this
On your own
Ten toes down,
they wasn't around

to see you do it
So no they cannot be proud
Tell them watch they mouth
Pack up them tears

As it appears
You're still here
You're still here
So who cares who left
Who cares who left

Who cares who left
Who cares
Tired of dealin' with people who come from fucked up families
Tired of dealin' with people born in a tragedy

How I'm learnin' you and you can't understand me
Don't blame yourself, I'm not selfish
But that just what I plan to be
Kick me when I'm down

But baby, that was just the past
Me, it had to be that way
Cause now I know which way
I don't wanna go back

I don't plan to relapse
I'm a few months clean
From slittin' across my thighs
Few months clean

Cuttin' my thighs as I cry
I keep my head up
Hold it high
Everyone's done evil, not a saint

So so have I
It didn't look too good on my side
It didn't look too good in my mind
It took so much healing inside

To know that my wrongs don't define me
Come and find me
If you think that's false
You could throw a whole show

Go on and set it off
Just don't go hurtin' yourself
Internal pain brings you hell
Talkin' that shit from my heart

Cause I done been there myself
I'm still here
I'm still here
Another year

I made it here
Shout out to my mama
And shout out to my daddy
Shout out to my therapist

The three people that had me
Shout out to my family
Who remained my family
And shout out to my girls

That never had to ask me
I done been through hell and back
And handled that
DBT did all of that

IOP early mornings
Jumped over hurdles
Got back on track
What can't I do

What can't I do
I was chasin' the bottle
Liquor was chasin' prescriptions
Chased the jack with the seltzer

Putting myself in positions
That I shouldn't have been in
Never said I was innocent
Just defendin' my character

Never had ill intentions
But honestly
Maybe those people weren't for me
Cause I had people that I thought adored me

Aimin' at the same target
And they scored with me
I hated to feel the pain
But I needed it

People filled with hatred
Made me so much stronger
So I should thank them
I should thank them

All that hatred
I should thank them
Questions for myself
Am I going through hell?

Got some questions for myself
Do I need some more help?
Questions for myself
Am I going through hell?

Got some questions for myself
I'm just reflecting on myself
Questions for myself
Do I need some more help?

Got some questions for myself
I had so much help
Questions for myself
Am I going through hell?

Got some questions for myself
I'm just reflecting on myself
I'm still here
I'm still here

Another year
I made it here



Credits
Writer(s): Ebony Daley
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