TAR SOUL

How does it feel knowing I remember everything inside
Is it so upsetting that I know my life's a fucking lie
People that I trusted, places that I thought I'd never been
Where I was drugged and beaten, raped by you and all your pedo friends

What was I supposed to do when everything came flooding back
Nightmares every night and every day another panic attack
You cannot be honest with yourself about the things you've done
But I've nothing to hide except the barrel of a loaded gun

Pull the trigger, blow his brains out
Blow my brains out, we're both fucked
Sliced my wrists so many times
But not one cut could change my mind

Please doctor won't you help me cry
I'm feeling rather dead inside
Just help me choose a way to die
As long as he goes first I'm fine

Fine, I'm fine, I'm strong, I'm fine
I shout that shit a thousand times
But not once did it ever feel
Like anything was fucking real

Mutilation, new sensation
Call it deadly consummation
In my head it's just defacement
Of a corpse that's been misplaced
And I don't like his fucking face
Let's carve a grin before we take
Another cut into his nape
What other secrets can you keep

Bloody hacksaw, ripping sinew
Tearing, pulling, you're so fucked
Gutted like a fucking fish
We both wish you'd never exist
Grab a pair of rusty pliers
Pull your teeth out one by one
Acid bath to decompose you
Flush your body when it's done

Fuck around and find out
What your friends were warning you about