River of Pain

Living in this darkness I'm anchored to it's sea
Everything I've ever tried it falters endlessly
Why must I live inside a wound that never heals
The years oh how they torment me
The pain is all I feel

Sometimes I see a brand new place
But nothing really changes
Even new familiar faces
Bring all the painful memories

I look at where I've been
And what I've done I can't erase
I see someone as beautiful as you
And lose my place

This is my life who I am all my mistakes
Won't let me out won't go away I keep it in
I've asked repeatedly if God can only see
My guilt my lies my river of pain

There's nothing I can do or I can change
To make it go away
It's something I have harshly learned
But it's too late for me

I've lost a million years of loving you
A lifetime I regret
I miss the smile upon your face
That's you in my heart I won't forget

This is my life who I am all my mistakes
Won't let me out won't go away I keep it in
I've asked repeatedly if God can only see
My guilt my lies my river of pain
This is my life who I am all my mistakes
Won't let me out won't go away I keep it in
I've asked repeatedly if God can only see
My guilt my lies my river of pain

This is my life who I am all my mistakes
Won't let me out won't go away I keep it in
I've asked repeatedly if God can only see
My guilt my lies my river of pain
This is my life who I am all my mistakes
Won't let me out won't go away I keep it in
The next time you're walking by me
I'll say a thousand times I'm sorry
My river of pain