The Head That Wears the Crown

Remembrance makes a hateful weight
A weariness that clings to me like rain
Sleep that brings no peace or rest
Troubled dreams of failure, loss, and shame
The aimless stream of caustic thoughts
Rewinding every word back to the start
I'm losing hope of making sense
Of the jumbled threads I pick apart

But I'll wear out my voice in an attempt to wake the dead
Spell my weakness out so clearly that it cannot be misread
Stop pretending I don't need you when it's obvious I do
There is nothing I need more right now than you

But you wait to see me beg?
That day comes never
You would see me beg?
Heavy is the head that wears the crown

Precarious golden memories
The moments of no distance in your voice
Singing heart and dancing eyes
Bright and fleeting. Breathless, stupid joy
But anything that seems to hold
Just makes you dive right back into the dark
To lick the open wounds that made you
So afraid of who you are

So I'll wear out my voice in an attempt to wake the dead
Spell my weakness out so clearly that it cannot be misread
Stop pretending I don't need you when it's obvious I do
There is nothing I need more right now than you

But you wait to see me beg?
That day comes never
You would see me beg?
Heavy is the head that wears the crown

By now you know you got it wrong
I won't pretend that it's ok
You played my heart out for too long
And threw the crucial parts away
Stop pretending you don't need me when it's obvious you do
There's no fucking doubt about it

You would see me beg?
That day comes never
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
You would see me beg?
Heavy is the head
If that is what you want, you'll wait forever