Dark Room

Something's I can't explain no matter how hard I try
Easier to keep it inside, I try not to cry
Build up my self esteem and try to starve my ego
Feel like a dead spirit in a body that wanna free load
Take a load off, I wonder if she deep throat
My safe place, I hit the G spot, forgot the G code
Herbal essence keep emotions under suppression
Hook, line, I'm sinking, detox trigger depression
I guess I'll just wait for my time to enter heavens gate
The course of life just don't seem right, I try to test my fate
You put a gun to my head, I call it good time
I'll pull your hoe card, your pride will have you doing time
Win, lose either way that situation turns
I was never the victor, my heart still burns
Suicidal thoughts, yea I guess I thought about it
Can't take the easy way out, guess I'm not bout it
Cut the lights off, shades drawn, make myself at home
Comfort zone, tears flowing, best to be left alone
Misery is company, I really understand myself
Trapped in my own mind, I really get to know my cell

I got the key locked in a safe place tucked away
Don't wanna let my feelings out cause I wanna stay
The taste of freedom is more than I could bargain for
Stuck at home syndrome got me used to a hardened floor
My sensitivity to light got me nocturnal
Keeping my opinions to myself got me non verbal
Bashful up in the back of the classroom
Try to lay low getting high on a bag of shrooms
Cold shower, new drip, a nigga stay groomed
Poker face on stage when I gotta play the room
You nervous cause you feel my presence like a pitbull
A shark in a tank, more like fish bowl
You carry pistol, I got a couple fistful
You know you wanna pull, best believe I'm wishful
Lights out, home run to my dark room
Credits fade, end of gloom story nestled in a tomb
Credits fade, end of gloom story nestled in a tomb
Life started once again, tomb turn into a womb
Eyes open once again, boom, feeling like I'm doomed
Cry's started once again, womb is my dark room