To My Father (Acoustic)

To my father
You must hate me
I feel soulless
I feel crazy
I called my mom up
Said I'm hurtin'
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin'

Been talkin' to God, I hope that you're real
I'm prayin' I feel somethin'
You can try to detach
The problems you have
I promise they still come
What if the problem is me?
And you don't wanna leave
I'm prayin' you let go
I'm totally fine with being alone
I told you I really am that numb

So what do I do when lovin' on you is never enough?
I try to be patient with lovin' myself
But I don't give a fuck
So what do I do when I'm drunk and feel like just takin' my life
I promise that you wouldn't bat me an eye
You wouldn't care if I died

To my father
You must hate me
I feel so soulless
I feel crazy
I called my mom up
Said I'm hurtin'
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin'
(ooh, ooh, ooh)

I feel the sky crashing down over me (ooh, ooh, ooh)
Why should I live when it hurts just to be
Me
Or who I thought I was
I spent too much time drinkin' all this liquor
Now I only like me when I'm drunk
It's fucked up I know
The only name I'll write in my own death note is me
Suicidal thoughts, broken tendencies
Healing isn't easy, something that I learned
Nothing you could teach me
My God is real, listen to me speak
I really need your help, I'm 'bout to kill myself
Fallin' to the ground, in my tears I drown
Can you hear me now?
Blood on the floor, cuts on myself
Fuck I hate myself, I try to change myself
Don't need fuckin' help, nothin' fuckin' helps

To my father
You must hate me, oh
I feel soulless
I feel crazy
I'm gon' call my mom up
Said I'm hurtin'
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin'
(ooh, ooh, ooh)
I feel the sky crashin' down on me, oh
(ooh, ooh, ooh)
Yeah, why should I live when it hurts just to be?