I Never Asked You To Love Me, So Why Did You?

This boy said, 'Go right on ahead, mess me up
I'll untangle us, like wired earphones'
And I froze, but think I almost said
My dear Gods, this boy doesn't know, just who he's talking to
This boy, sitting cross-legged in my car
Said, 'Kiss me, like you've missed me'
And I all but laughed

I should've said
'Tell me, to kiss you as hard as the world's hurt me
And maybe then you'd learn your lesson
If somebody asks you, with tears in their eyes
To not love them, you shut up and listen'
You never fight a war for somebody
Who's spent a life-time seeking comfort in losing
Oh, you cannot save somebody
When they what they need saving from is themselves, and
I'm proof of it', and

In a seven-eleven, I said
'You're being too nice, I hate it, you've got to stop'
This boy said, 'I'm sorry if it terrifies you so
But you can't always get just what you want'

The next day, he said 'Let's go make a son?'
His hands forever on my cheeks, he's so nice, it's criminal
Now, his fingers intertwine, in mine
In cafes, I sit with him in, to not think, to kill time
This boy, with his big, big pupils, and hopes, I could cry

I said
'I'm going to be running away, any day now
I'm going to be somebody that hurts your heart, and ouch
I'll lose a couple nights' sleep, for sure
But I'll live just fine, knowing it'
How do you like me now?

This boy said, 'Well, you hurting me
Will be a goodbye-present, then, alright?'
Gods, how I love, all the love he showers all over me
Just why
This boy, he kisses me, all nice, all slow
All delicate, like he knows
Just one quick move and I might just break
Into the last pieces, I can I break in
Why is it that the hearts you break
Are hearts you'd shield with your life
If yours wasn't dyin'?
This boy said, crying, 'I've always hated this world
But I hate it differently now
Now that I know just what it's done to you'

This boy said
'Holding your hand, I feel so, so free
You know, you're mine, don't you?'
And I bit my lip, so hard, I didn't scream
'The last real nice boy
Who'd asked me the same thing
Would tell you I'm not, that I could never be
You cannot love somebody that doesn't know what to do with it
I'm proof of it
(Don't) listen to me, please'