Mercy

Broken promises I know we starved
I ain't had nobody to hold me up
There weren't no heroes in my city it was lonely darg
Brittle kid but with a broken heart

I wish they loved me just a little more
Or was a bit more forgiving for all the things I did before
Memories came at a cost when I was up in pain and they was drifting thoughts
I know I tried but they shut the door

And dad was poorly it was pouring it don't help that we was living poor
Had to double check what we was living for, you live and you learn
Or you die and you don't
Aren't we all afraid growing old and dying alone

I shed a tear for my dad
Life ain't all chasing the bag
Stared in the mirror of truth
Learnt to embrace what I have
I know there's insecurities I repressed that left a brother scarred
And my bro tryna escape from his troubled past

Please don't leave me on my own the bridge I'm crossing I see burning down
Screaming for grace my own people really aired me out
It's 100 degrees
My own friend broke the seal and tried to hustle me for p's and left the rubble there for me

I hope you find your inner peace
I'm still tryna find mine
Raise my hands to God, I'm sorry man I crossed a fine line like
And I know it hurts
But was it all deserved

I don't really wanna live the life no more
If what they wanted was a war then I ask that you please stay away
And this ain't really the vision of the life I saw
When it rains it pours lord give me saving grace

Give me forgiveness and give me mercy oh
I raise my hands I know you heard me Lord
I need your light as I traverse through the storm

I'm from a place where the good die young and forgiveness is hard
I cried an ocean worth of tears for my marge
And frankly I ain't clear of my past
But I guess that shows a brother he has heart

Freedom surging my fingertips
I nurtured this for every nightmare my block was living in
Friends they stabbed me in my back and watched me bleed out
But when you're living in them flats I guess you gotta see it out

Role models in my ends I had to be one
From my estate the kids don't know that the hole they all burrowed was a deep one
I need to clear some space for these m's when I see one
I still pray for my friends but for these Em's I had to grieve one

Cuh I know that they spite me
But I still stand up for my people like I'm Spike Lee, I'm chasing something greater
I know no one believed in me when I was on my way up
But along the way I guess I learnt to keep them in my prayers because

I don't really wanna live the life no more
If what they wanted was a war then I ask that you please stay away
And this ain't really the vision of the life I saw
When it rains it pours lord give me saving grace

Give me forgiveness and give me mercy oh
I raise my hands I know you heard me Lord
I need your light as I traverse through the storm