Roach-like Resilience

Feel like a wilted plant, wanna chill but can't
Can I kick it? Alright cool, because I will just rant
Layer one's the matriarch, a major part
of my behavior starts with no foundation like a trailer park
Consequently since seventh grade I've been making art
As just a way to keep the pain at bay when shit was crazy dark
I guess to try to keep sane I jot my thoughts down
And journal on the daily cuz mane, I'd rather not drown
I've often found solace in philosophical musing
Finding meaning where there's none because life is awful confusing
My family is a super cell that frequently produces wind
That's at least 210 MPH but musics been
Like an underground shelter some energetic shield
Deflecting radiated rays like the magnetic field
I stay surviving with my roach-like resilience
That's why you'll never see the day society erodes my brilliance

"It's said that cockroaches would be the only creatures to survive a nuclear war. They're not indestructible but they are amazingly resilient"

If the past is traumatic and the path you travel is tragic
You may naturally and passively unravel as an addict
But your sadness is valid and symptomatic
Of the savagery you actually battled if that's dramatic
Well, you probably had it half as bad and shouldn't speak on this
Me and my people are from Hades, fuck your mountain peaks of bliss
I keep just trying to be tough but it's a hassle bro
Tired from these every day struggles, these demons have to go
I'd rather grow a pasture full of apple trees and apricots
Instead I wrastle with madness, in fact I think creative blocks
Form in the painful knots my stomach's always twisted in
Which is why I find no fault in folks that end up giving in
But listen friend, try to hold on if you can
I don't know why this happened to you, I don't understand
Why life's so fucked up but I see and hear you
Might not have been as tough but my existence has been weird too