Too Many Sorrys

Was I too much?
Or not enough?
I don't think it matters anymore
No it never did, of that I'm sure
From 800 miles, to 800 I miss you's
I didn't realize that my heart
Was something you'd misuse

Now if you had told me I'd be lonely
I'd laugh at you and say
"No this time he promised he'd love me forever
He told me he would stay"
But too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room
He did what I couldn't, he made the decision, for one but not for two

Was I too much?
Not a light enough touch?
I see you now for what you're worth
Not even close to what I deserved
From the thousand times, that my soul died
I didn't realize that my love
Was something that could be taken in stride

Now if you had told me I'd be lonely
I'd laugh at you and say
"No this time he promised he'd love me forever
He told me he would stay"
But too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room
He did what I couldn't, he made the decision, for one but not for two

The teardrops stained my lashes
My letters burned to ashes
My lyrics of bliss
Were burnt away to a crisp
I don't care how many times you'd apologize
The fingers behind your back, they disqualify
Every painstaking breath
Every heartbreaking mess
You turned me into a martyr
Don't make this any harder
By lying through your teeth
"Baby, I'm sorry, I swear"
Well I'm sure you are now
Maybe someone will hear your prayers

But if you had told me I'd be lonely
I'd have laughed at you and said
"Honey believe me, not trying to be mean
I'm glad to me he's dead"
Because too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room
I wish I'd done it sooner, made the decision, for me, now I'm in bloom