no caller id

If dying alone is the scariest thing
Then why should I be afraid of talking too loud
Or picking up phones as they ring with no caller id
And admitting I wanna leave town
Well what's there to leave on the surface
As insufferable as I am fun
So I've never tried smiling on purpose
'Cause I thought that you'd say I look dumb

Forget it if I'm slowly melting
To scare away all of my fears
And forgive me for suddenly telling the truth
Just to prove to myself I'm still here
Just to prove I still wanna be here

If falling in love is the one greatest thing
Then why does my head hurt when she's in the room
And when our friends force us to sing a duet that we did
I swear I've never been so out of tune
But for a minute we weren't so alone
Learned to laugh without putting on fronts
There's a million reasons to never leave home
But to get out I only need one

Forget it if I'm slowly melting
To scare away all of my fears
And forgive me for suddenly telling the truth
Just to prove to myself I'm still here
Well why don't you see that I'm running
To make up for years that I lost
Yeah I'd rather be stared at than end up alone
Just to prove this is all that I want
Is this honestly all that you want

Is this honestly all that I want
Is this honestly all I can do
Is all this for me or for you
Is this honestly all that I want
Is this honestly all I can do
Is all this for me or for you