1988

1988
La da da

When my time comes
Will I go above or below?
Your presence got me sinning
I'm better off being alone
Impressing you
Attracted by secrets you never told
But for your satisfaction
I actually didn't know
After everything that's happened
My actions weren't my own
You gave me fractured glasses
And told me see through the smoke
I navigate Manhattan
With your hands on my throat
It's freezing it's getting cold
You squeezing until I choke
When my time comes
Will I go above or below?
Questioning what's next for me lately
Is getting old
All them wasted dreams
About making it to a goal
But after ecstasy
You inevitably fold
But the pressure of my laziness lately
Is taking a toll
And I signed up for college
In exchange for my soul
I guess Ye knew all about it
When he went platinum and gold
In 2004
But I know

Inside
This mind
It feels right
It feels like
In time
This heals right?
This heals right?

When my time comes
Wonder if I'll have it made
Reminiscing like I'm Drake
Wasn't nothing the same
And you can tell it's drastic
By the look on my face
But everybody subject to change
(This your idea of us changing the world?)
And as I navigate
The wilderness of the fame
How will it sit in my brain?
Will it get rid of the pain?
What connotations
Will you all attach to my name?
I envision the hating niggas
Gon be acting amazed
See the love in every reaction
When it's actually fake
The type of fake that niggas giving you
Attached to a chain
The type of fake that took her to a D
from an A
The type of fake that make a nigga
Act different in ways
Cause there's something for them to gain
In exchange
Lies that I'm gon hurl
To her cause I watched
As her motive's were unfurled
Her friends are accessories
Treat em' like faux pearls
Cause she just a lone girl
In this silicone world
But when you heat up plastic it'll melt
And she sweating
Is it hot motherfucker?
I couldn't tell
I'll be too distracted by my selfishness
Somebody fulfill
Them promises of finding somebody
As real as myself
They told me these addictions
Get better when I'm older
And I'm over waiting
It's making my mind colder
With the weight of the world
Twice over on my shoulder
Feels like a fucking high
I'll be damned if I die sober

Life a bitch
I hope she bad
So I can fuck it
Before a young dumb nigga
Kick the bucket
Said you'd make a bad heaven
But you'd make a beautiful hell
She'd make a bad heaven
But you'd make a beautiful hell
She said "I'm over all the games
And I'm lovesick"
But she love the way it feel
When we fucking
She said "you'd make a bad heaven
But you'd make a beautiful hell
You'd make a bad heaven
But you'd make a beautiful hell"

Oh well
I walked inside a mind
that reminded me of myself
I opened up my eyes
To find I was dreaming of wealth
And my anxiety rise
When I try to find it
For real
They say I'm out my mind
They say "therapy oughta help"
What you expecting?
It's ineffective
I knew I was dead
When I couldn't see my reflection
I knew I shoulda fled
When they told me pick a direction
I'm introspecting
I'm less inventive
I had some ideas
But forgot what they represented
The devil walked toward me
He asked if I had a second
His appearance was alarming
His etiquette was impressive
He told me not to speak my mind
That he find it offensive
I ain't gotta repent shit
If I said it I meant it nigga
Don't tempt me
When I'm faded
Notice the empty liquor
All I'm saying is don't forget
Who invented you niggas
Cause karma's a bitch
And I am friendly with her
Constant thoughts inside my mind
They out of control bruh
I could overdose
On the power of my soul a
Pure energy like Akira
And you know what
I have arrived
And Neo Tokyo is finna blow up

Uh, 88
(Akira!)
88
(Akira! I'm not Akira)
1988