Severed Verse

I preferred to reject reality as it happened
I could have made more of those months
I locked it out instead, I played the part of the hopeful
Arrogantly celebrating the numb

False pretence of strength, observed as I was
All thought took a break; no longer fighting the cause
And when it hit, I was blinded for months
I owe the best that I can: all I'll ever become

Chose wasted days, prefer to obtain forgotten hours
No attention paid, switch on the lights and kill the power

When we held your hand I had no idea
Even faced with the truth, I thought you'd always be here
The countless ways that you forged who I'd become
More than blood in my veins, so proud to be your son

Naïve blind faith, uncharacteristic hope
I found new truth in the darkest joke
Take solace in being right at the start
At least I got a brain but no longer a heart

Chose wasted days, prefer to obtain forgotten hours
No attention paid, switch on the lights and kill the power
So much I wish you'd seen, the laughs we missed out; the severed verse
All these years gone, it feels false yet it still gets worse

I'll never get tired of learning how you'd want me to live
This life can be beautiful when you give all you have to give
I'll never get tired
This life can be beautiful