Rattling in My Head

I just need a little, something for the pain
I swear I won't get addicted I just need to slow my brain
'Cause I've been staring at the ceiling since 11:42
Now it's 3:00 in the morning, I'm still thinking about you
And all the things we never said to each other
Rattling in my head, over and over again

Try to slow my breathing, expand and contract
But the wind gets knocked back out of me when the memories flood back
'Cause I keep thinking 'bout your mother and the way she always said
"Oh, you feel just like the daughter I always wish I'd had"
Now I'm laying here alone in our bed
With these words rattling in my head, over and over again
Over and over again (over and over and over and over)

And I know that in a moment I'll be drifting off to sleep
And I'll get to see your face staring back at me in my dreams
And we won't have to live the bad parts, we'll just focus on the good
And we'll get to do the things that we always said we would
But for now I'm laying in my bed with these thoughts rattling in my head
Over and over again (over and over and)
Over and over again (over and over and)
Over and over again (over and over and)

So I'll just have a little, enough to slow me down
Cause I'd rather fill my lungs with filth than be filled with this hell
Tomorrow will be better, the daylight always is
It's the night that makes me wonder what parts of me you miss
So I need something to slow my head