Patience

You so open bout your pain, I just can't relate
I like keeping all my trauma in my fucking brain
I got fears in my body, tryna relocate
I can't talk about em cause these demons tryna fuck with me, yeah
I done heard all the things that you telling me
Still wondering why I be here for
Tryna work my way around it, all the detours
Cause I done been through hell and back
And where's my reward for all that shit was done to me
I been feeling suicidal tendencies
But I can't just put an end to me
I'll be helping all my fucking enemies

And I don't wanna fall
Too many of my people I can't let down yeah
I'm doing everything tryna hold on yeah
I'm hoping for the better, won't hold my breath

That's why it hurts so much when you lie to me
I'm just tryna show you a side of me
That I can't let go
That I do not know
And I'm trying to admit my flaws
And I'm trying to reveal the cause
You just need a little patience on me
I just need a little patience baby

I got so much anger
I got so much rage
When it boil over
I spill it on the page
Or put it on my skin
Know that's a bad habit
But where do I begin
I ain't too good at this
They tell me put the bottle down, tryna hold over
If grandma heard about this, in the grave she'd roll over
Well I'm just laying in the water tryna stay afloat
Everytime I think I'm up I hit a slippery slope, yeah
I'll take all the pain and I'll throw it in my head
When it's hard to handle
Fuck it
I'm just hard to deal with
And i'on even know if I can fix the damage

And I don't wanna fall
Too many of my people I can't let down yeah
I'm doing everything tryna hold on yeah
I'm hoping for the better, won't hold my breath

That's why it hurts so much when you lie to me
I'm just tryna show you a side of me
That I can't let go
That I do not know
And I'm trying to admit my flaws
And I'm trying to reveal the cause
You just need a little patience on me
I just need a little patience baby