Stillness, Stop

I'm not asking you to kill me softly, it's an order
Do not kill me at all
I don't know if it's for isolation or protection
That we put up these walls

I'm not trying to be inoffensive
And force myself to be the empathic one
I'm not asking you, the picture's crystal clear now
Don't even try to touch me

A lot of people say my dog is crazy
She's a doubter, she doesn't trust no one
'Cause everybody likes to have somebody, a companion
When the rules are their own

They brag about some sense of community
It's easy if your identity allows you to
What a train of words, what a train of words
What a train wreck

I have been told, "Try not to think about it
Make an effort, this is all in your head"
Now, would you tell somebody
In this fucking dirty city, "Try not to breathe toxic air"?

I wish I didn't feel everything so much
I know, this is a blessing and yet a curse
There's a hole right in my tummy that won't fill up
I'm just so sick of it

Reject the expectations, live the present, live the moment
This way it can't go wrong
But I keep feeling like some kind of separate understudy
Not even living their life

I'm done with being mannered, behaving well
This time I just won't make any sense at all
I don't want a partner who doesn't make me
Feel good about myself