Relapse

I just drank and threw nine years away
Self medicate trying to heal the pain
I pray to God take it all away
Trying to hold the tears keep it gangsta man
Light another 'pote in the alleyway
Yeah I'm back on nic' can't throw the pack away
I gotta live to see another day
But I hate these feelings bro I ain't okay

This the realist shit that I ever wrote
Going through it man take another toke
Whats the point of this yeah it's all a joke
Closest brothers even trying to see me croak
Don't believe in love 'cause my heart been broke
I feel all alone I'm gettin drunk alone
Only trust my glock and my microphone
I gave my all and turned to stone
Tried suicide and won't try it again
Learned you got to take life on the chin
My son only reason I'm right even then
I'm depressed man I cant even pretend
When I cry I feel like a bitch
Like man keep it G go and murder them kids
Hate that society made me like this
Just killed a flask but I need a fifth
I know that someday I gotta get sober
Today ain't the day I ain't ready to get over
The shit that I been through is breaking my shoulders
I pray for a sunny day only get colder
A love addict but my heart ravaged
A drug addict I got bad habits
My baby mama think I ain't shit
She might be right look at how I'm acting

I just drank and threw nine years away
Self medicate trying to heal the pain
I pray to God take it all away
Trying to hold the tears keep it gangsta man
Light another 'pote in the alleyway
Yeah I'm back on nic' can't throw the pack away
I gotta live to see another day
But I hate these feelings bro I ain't okay

My life been flipped since I left The Bay
Every turn I make more distress and pain
All these bitches play, all my friends are fake
Love me they say, lying to my face
But I be lying too
Seems that it's hardest to try and be honest
I look in the mirror and I can't even process
Be real with myself I don't know what my wants is
Do I really want her or want to be wanted
Whatever the cause is I'm stressing regardless
My bro sold me out and I really went heartless
Stop keeping track, can't count all my losses
Can't pay my rent but I just bought a bottle
Sip it and hope I feel better tomorrow
Wearing this smile I swear that its hollow
Inside I self loath and wallow in sorrow

I just drank and threw nine years away
Self medicate trying to heal the pain
I pray to God take it all away
Trying to hold the tears keep it gangsta man
Light another 'pote in the alleyway
Yeah I'm back on nic' can't throw the pack away
I gotta live to see another day
But I hate these feelings bro I ain't okay



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