Cabin Fever

Sitting alone
Nobody's home
With a mind that's in overdrive right now

What is that sound
Spinning around
A time bomb that's about to explode

And it feels like sinking
When you can't stop the thinking
Clear out the clutter and let's get this sorted out

Every night
Try as I might
I can't seem to get out of the gate

Nothing in here
Is at all clear
It's hard to know what to do anymore

It's so hard the not knowing
Where anything's going
Wake me up later after all of this has passed

I'm starting to wonder why I'm still here
In this house
In this city
In this country
The whole thing just makes you start to question everything
To the point that
I'm starting to wonder if I even know who I am anymore
Every cell in my body is screaming out for change
Change in every arena of my life
My job
My home
My goals
All the things I used to take for granted
All the things I never questioned before
And it's like my brain is racing a million miles a minute
And I can't keep up
I've got all these things I want to do
And somehow I feel paralyzed and stuck
I can't move
My mind won't stop, but my body won't start
Won't act
Won't just do something
Anything
I mean, obviously the world has been forever changed
And by extension our individual lives will change as well
I just wish I could go somewhere
I wish I could do something
I wish I could see someone
I need to get out of this place
Before these four walls consume me whole
Before I really lose my mind
Whatever is left of it to lose