Better Off Dead

I've been trying hard to hold on
The lights flicker when I'm alone
It's like I'm haunted
But the ghost is long gone

I've been trying to breathe
But don't know, everytime i speak
It's like I'm hidden far beyond
What everyone sees

And tonight it hurts like hell
There is this pain in my chest
And i don't wanna save this mess
That I have made of myself

Tell me, have you felt beyond repair
Like everytime you breathe, it is a gift from hell?
Like you'd rather give up than give in to yourself
'cause you're better off in that grave
Yeah, you're better off dead

Sometimes when i'm alone
The memories in my head play like a song
They might say, "all isn't gone"
But i'll kill if i hear another say, "hold on"

I can't, don't you see?
I'm at the end, holding you close
But it's all pretend
I have a gun in the other hand
And it's going off

In a while this all will end
All of my broken parts will mend
I will finally breathe when all my ashes spread

Tell me, have you felt beyond repair
Like everytime you breathe, it is a gift from hell?
Like you'd rather give up than give in to yourself
'cause you're better off in that grave
Yeah, you're better off dead

'cause i am done with tryin' to make them see
And maybe, when i'm gone, they'll finally believe

I was gone long before i'll leave
They have my body but they lost me
I have no scars for them to see
But my bruised heart bleeds

Tell me, have you felt beyond repair
Like everytime you breathe, it is a gift from hell?
Like you'd rather give up than give in to yourself
'cause you're better off in that grave
Yeah, you're better off dead