Monster

I guess we won't be friends
Though you know, I'm still dying to see
How this whole thing ends
Hey, I've been trying to call you
Been trying to make amends
But if I'm being honest
I think it's your turn

'Cause with me, you weren't happy
Well, you're fucking sad now
And your sadness has made me ugly
Like a demon who haunts you
Like a ghost or some spirit otherworldly
But a ghost is just a soul
Who's been trying to move on

And maybe one of these days
I'll finally get sober
And maybe by then
You will be in a better mood
But I know how you love to chase
What makes you feel lonely
And you know I was always too weak
To get away from you

So I'll be the monster
That you think I've become
As long as you promise
When you see me
You'll run

Yeah, you remind me of my mother
But I was trying to love you different
From the way that I love her
You know that I wanna take
Care of her when she gets older
But I'm telling you
We're still young

And now I'm not even sure
If I'll still be knocking
By the time you come and answer this door
But don't worry darling
I've seen all your bullshit before
So I'm gonna let you
Take your time

And maybe I will never have
Another lover
But I did just start drinking with
Somebody new
And my God, I've been
So fucking lonely
And I would never wish this
Loneliness on you

So I'll be the monster
You think that I am
As long as you promise
I'll never see you again

'Cause you were the one who
Locked yourself away in my tower
When you know that I'd never
Ask you for that kind of power
I just wanted your love
I just wanted your trust
I just wanted this pain not to hurt me so much
But if you're gonna wield your sword baby
I'm not gonna cower
I guess that makes me the monster

Yeah I'll be the monster
You need me to be
As long as you promise
You're gonna set me free