Screaming Softly

I split myself off
Freeze versions in time
Anything to help them digest me
I'm out but invisible
Uncomfortably miserable
Misunderstood, afraid to take a stand

I'm tuning out of FM
While they debate my right to be here
I went to the DMV, wasn't seen
I left with so much anger

I'm pushing away feelings
Because I've learned to stop the flood
Ink sinks into the recess of my hippocampus
Deepening the cuts

I go through bursts of living in my own skin
Shutting out the rubble and the smoke
Feels blissful for the quickest minute
Overflow leads me to choke

Have to scream that I exist
But my softness is too loud
I hate seeing me like this
Want to live to make me proud
Have to scream that I exist
But my softness is too loud
I hate seeing me like this
Want to live to make me proud

I called up a friend
Said she's happy again
Said we see versions of ourselves unplanned, unscripted
If I just grabbed the pen I'd find I'm right where I've been

Wander around in this cage I've constructed
I'm growing inside and I wish it combusted
I see life clearly when I trust it's my view
So I ice all of my feelings till my heart is fucking blue

I go through bursts of living in my own skin
Shutting out the rubble and the smoke
Feels blissful for the quickest minute
Overflow leads me to choke

Have to scream that I exist
But my softness is too loud
I hate seeing me like this
Want to live to make me proud
Have to scream that I exist
But my softness is too loud
I hate seeing me like this
Want to live to make me proud

This perfect version I created
Inside though my soul was fading
Found the path of least resistance
Can't go back, I'd fall to pieces
Hitting checkpoints predefined
Now breathing air that's truly mine
I'm rolling dice and never landing
Life's a fabric, stop pretending

I will scream that I exist
Won't let my softness be too loud
I hate seeing me like this
Have to live to make me proud



Credits
Writer(s): Ace Quintana
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