cockroach. (feat. eurei, Detro Mighty, Biinjo, javoran, Klover, bred, OMINVS, Horkjunk & Mekbok)

(Huh, yeah)
(Uh, yeah)
(Uh, yeah)
(Uh, yeah)
Do it make sense
Do you pick up what I'm putting down
(Uh, yeah)
Do you make sense
I'm not sure if I'm back on the ground
(Fuck, yeah)
Got no patience
But I act like I do
Karma is real
Come right back to you
Am I makeshift
Just a robot to use
Hurt in my chest
Think I just blew a fuse

I'm feeling mad
I can never relax
Still take a picture
Cause I wanna last
I'll say some things that you'll never say back
Arrest all my secrets like cardiac
Bitch, where the fuck the party though
Pull out her phone
She take flics for the memories
Guarding my heart
I got walls up, security
Hoping she got my good-

(Fuck) Cuts deep
Let me cut shit
Like a wrist slit
For a minute
Open like I'm doped up
Haven't smoked yet
Still I'm spinning
Oh bet
Let me say something
You're down if I pay something
Your neck
Let me break something
I keep it pressed

Can you pretend
That you want me
For more than a minute
Pretend when you say you loved me
And admit it
I can't pick myself up anymore
I'm glued to the ground
But you stick to the door
You never come home
You don't call me no more
You cutting my heart out of me with a sword

Cause it's either all or nothing
I'm tired of all this bluffing
I'm being pulled side to side
How bout you try being in my shoes
That's the issue
You don't want to
I don't treat you like a monster
Been through more than you have to chew
On a daily basis
And you say that I'm screwed

Screw you
Livin' everyday in a sewer for you
Man had to get outta them chains
And get a view
You was never gonna meet me
At the table for two
Said you wanna see myself
But I don't see nobody else
I'm fallin' apart
Feels like no one to tell
Trapped in these stages
I spiral through he-

Wait
Push all that shit to the side
Spreading my wings
Take me high
Finally feeling at place in the sky
Till the wax melts away, down I fly

You crawlin' back to me (are we dreaming)
Why can't you see (why can't you see)
That you don't want me to be here

(It ain't a joke)
(Earn a halo)
(I'm tryna fly)
It-it-it ain't a joke
I wanna die tonight
I've been tryna cope
Earn a halo
I'm tryna fly tonight
Do wanna die
Do you
Do you wanna die
You have not been what I've been through
Momma cryin' cause money bring issues
It's a shame that that shit couldn't fix you
But I'm still tryna make it to heal you
All of these boundaries
That you built up been surrounding me
Yeah
Guess it was bound to be
At least I know that you were proud of me
Yeah

I thought I wouldn't break her
Everyone telling me
What I lack
God damn
Cockroach in the cellar
Cockroach in the cellar
Never should have kissed me
Never should have kissed me back

(Most ancient and adaptable creatures)
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
Wanna make you cry
Tearin' my whole life apart from the inside (from the inside)
How could you pass by (How could you pass by)
You glance at me and walk away now (walk away now)
You left me with no heart, I break now
I'm feelin' nauseous, so exhausted
Need a break now
I'm losin' conscious, so baby
Run away now