Passive Life

Four wall distraction
Wait for something to happen
Four wall distraction
Wait for something to happen
Wait for someone to happen
Wait for something to happen
Listen

Long gone friend, pick up where we left off
Lose the thread, who this again?
Long gone friend pick up where we left off
They admonish, water your friendships, I'm caught
Defend I'm bad keeping in touch, what that excuse even mean
Why I did something wrong when we want the same thing?
Went back to the four wall lot
Thought how to water friendships, well, I was not taught
To advocate for who or what I like, I go soft
They high speed passing lane overtake what they want
I stay safe passive life pulled over for something to happen
Someone to notice to fill up my gas can
I don't have their tendency
The energy, they the wild one, now we talking chemistry
Café one-way glance and never see again
This the only way to meet and I only play games I win?
Too worried I burden, check for phone numbers on my receipts
Never leave my station, extroverts bully like, "It speaks!"
In a world won't shut up, the loudest wheel get the grease
Not all advance, no floor yield to introvert freaks
NPC gotta lotta dialogue to spew forth
For all they know I just rendered, entered the viewport
Not the main character in my story, I'm blinded
We worship the hero journey, what if I'm a sidekick?
An extra, read about it and weep
Statistic, grave say born eighty-five, dash, and deceased
Zoom between the two numbers, an ordinary Joe?
Bestow burial fees and all the Wirecutter picks in my home
I stalk the cemetery, remains still below
Eight million stories strained to be legendary? You'll never know
I only know my allotted timestream above
Defer the survey: my values are what?
Got conspiracy theorist boards, pins, and string
Of connections in my life if they mean anything
How they get there? All that I know
Best laid plans? The best connects outta my control
(That don't sit right)
Do we like what's good or familiar, on sight
No fam, I clap for bar karaoke, killing it at life
Started with distant parents, I disassociate
Dive into my mind to feel safe
Now peers say I look bored, why you waiting
I snap back, lie that I'm good; people pleasing is manipulation
Now I try to be the weirdo I was in junior high
Maybe thrive on the mechanism to survive
This time a deliberate great sleep
No trapped classmate nerdy goths to welcome me
Hoard knowledge to call people out like a patent troll
A niche internet forum away from an Adam Grant anecdote
Studies show I stayed too long at the party
Don't know to retrain grooves in my brain, I'm sorry
None do, some say they working on it, mass pity party
We'll never give each other our learned level of perfection, I'm sorry

Paralyzed to happen
Four wall distraction
Every day wake up
Wait for something to happen
Every day wake up
Wait for something to happen



Credits
Writer(s): Emily Corso, John Kurkowski
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