Incapable Arms (05/09/23)

So far the winds of May have come
The leafs swayed like a volatile sense of self
Something's beating inside of me
An enormous hurricane, it's a chimera my brain does recognize

And for a brief wink, the sadness comes back for more

So far the breeze of June has touched me
Thin fingers felt like everything I could long for
Looking for a greater purpose
Struggling to stabilize myself before I fall

And for a brief wink you kiss my lips
I swear a deaf storm took me in

If I could push my will into the sea, maybe it could learn to swim
To dive into your arms and sink beneath your skin
As you fall on my chest, anxiety recedes

Just like you returned, you will leave
If you have to bite my lips, I won't resist

These irrational words that you may never read
Are attached to my hands, attached to my dreams
And I never thought that these incapable arms were a paradise to you
And I wish you get to know the truth that I won't spell

I can't believe you've become someone
You're charmingly beautiful
I may smile for you every single time I see your face
But I'm afraid love is determined to end one day

I hope someday I can hug you fearless