See No Evil

Being forgiven for atrocities a man's biggest fear
Cause the hand of man he fret not
He knows God is always within earshot
Souls unrested, it seems he's been bested
By these vices he own and more than thrice he has not known Him
All the signs He has shown him, all null and void
Favor given to him, with this life he always toyed
Remnants of past deeds torment his spirit
He allowed disease to manifest, he never killed it
Haunting are the voices that consume him
And taunting are the choices that doomed him
Blissful ignorance in a prideful child
And he is mindful of that which is foul
But it sits in his bowels, those wicked forces
Now in his nightmares all he hear are noises
Seeing shadows dance in the back striking poses
Can't part any seas but he knows Moses
Felt all the thorns but he never smelt roses
It's his pain that he gone keep the closest
Couldn't feel it anymore so he up the dosage
Gave him tunnel vision said it help him keep focus
With penalty comes a needle with an injection
But he's infatuated with suffering that's his predilection
An addiction, he's inflicted great pain on his body
And his follies is what separates him from righteousness
No light in his tunnel and the world is his journal
He marks his presence and shows no reverence
Deviant of any rulings and his actions are beyond grueling
His heart and mind are forever dueling for his soul to encompass
One shall drown and one shall surface
And his soul his up for purchase
He found no salvation at those churches
Break his legs still need no crutches
He'll crawl to the kingdom that is coming
They marvel at the strength he summons
He set ablaze the bridges that are burning
Something dark in his spirit that is churning
Good and bad he knows no discernment
He know good and well the pain permanent
Psychedelics transformed him into a relic
A fossil, is it possible he might need a medic?
Pills lodged inside his crevices, he said that's what his breakfast is
An easy escape from feelings he hate
Pop a few to be safe while smoke hits his face
He prays the hurt dissipates with no sense of a trace
He understands these problems are laced with trauma
He cannot solve them without a fix
Does not matter which poison he picks
They all mix in the bucket he kicks
The wounds are unrelenting
He knows nothing heaven was sending
Rules and laws he forever bending
Unrelenting are the cacophony of screams
That infiltrate his dreams and he is keen
To the most obscene of scenes
To which most consider fiction but it is a true depiction
Of a life lived without benediction
Deadly precision taken in his steps to redemption
A mission taken by the few and frantic
Tiresome troubles proved to be titanic
Rancid acts evermore tacked create a panic
In the night he laments and repents
For the sins he fluently commits
It's the bigger picture puzzle he can never get
He only feel the heat after fires lit
He'll wear the shoes only if the attire fit
There's a fight and his anger up and pent
And this man been primed since an infant
He'll never change he's no amendment
Without bounds and know no limits
There's no telling when he'll be finished