last words

Introvert I usually hate conversations
But this was the happiest I've felt with a soul since a couple ages
Feelings like no other woke the love from hibernation
A hopeless realization when it slowly starts fading

Got what you needed out of me and withdrew
Months gone by how im still stuck making sad tunes
Had ya flaws but I was down to love you harder
I had mine but shit didn't wanna stick around much longer

Sometimes wanna hit you up and ask how you've been
Then I remember sit back and think about what you did
I'm left confused
Wanted to write aggressive
But it's not what's in my heart
Id rather grow and show progression

Its gone be a while till I forget ya
Effects after you find a girl that love ya and caress ya
Even if it was one sided Ive pictured how it could of been though
It's a shame didn't get to love you to my fullest potential

Said you liked to read
I didn't but made a library visit
You liked smokin weed
Took the fumes in even if my asthma would kick in
Drive you wherever
Still don't care I ran up the mileage
Loved staying with you late nights
By morning on Camano Island

We all wish it works out but doesn't always go our way
That's just how the story's written just gotta flip the page
Gotta keep it pushing keep living life day by day
In the end it's gone work out we gon be okay

I thought the nail in the coffin was when you unfollowed me
But really it was that last message you sent that shit was hard to read
Made me think about everything differently shit was pure rage
Had me connecting some dots like a kid in the 1st grade

Generated 13 pluses from a negative
Had to go and squeeze out all the juice that that'd lemon give
Was used to being lonely never really gave a fuck
If theres one thing that you showed me it's that solitary sucks

Looking back at the holidays we could of had but missed
Halloween got no sugar only ended up getting tricked
Stuffing a bitch for thanksgiving only helps for a lil bit
Christmas felt colder had a bottle for my new years kiss

You needed an umbrella
Mine was a only fit one kind
I gave it to you but someone gave you his that fit both of you guys

Left me out in the rain
Got soaked still waiting to dry
Like how it was back in the day
Alone we back on some loneliness vibes

Went in looking for love
Came out learning a lesson
I see why we become heartless tried to build something then they wreck it
I see why our views change when we take the hit from their intentions
Its easy to give in so let me switch up the perspective

I hope he takes you roses the ones I had would shrivel dry
I hope he takes you star gazing I tried but the clouds filled the night
It wasn't meant to be and that's okay I understand it now
it just hurts to see you move on while I learn detachment now

Met you at your lowest
Won't see you at your highest
Breaks my heart knowing I wont wipe the tears when you crying
Breaks my heart knowing I won't be there to say keep fighting
Breaks my heart knowing I won't be there to you see you shining

I stopped thinking about me and put myself in your shoes
Life hit you hard now I see why you cope the way you do

I think if you ever came back
I'd probably leave all of this in the past
Use the knife that you put in my back
to cut you a cake for your 20th you ain't had

But I think I gotta stop waiting
'Cause I know this is for the best
Don't understand the reason but in the end it'll all make sense

Nothing but a memory
Reading the same book won't change the ending
No longer written for me
Gotta move on and continue the story

I know I said this an album But it's more like confessions
The end is here so it's time we learn acceptance
The wound will heal up but the scar remains forever
A reminder not to mess with love and if you do to be careful

I won't forget but I forgive ya
I won't forget but I forgive ya
I won't forget but I forgive ya
I hope you can forgive me too