It's You

Told me I'd be something if you had to bet
And gave me the last drag of your cigarette
But all I really wanted was the taste you left on it
I could tell you anything that's on my mind
But I don't wanna tell you what I think right now
So I'll settle with distance and just try to keep it quiet

I was working weekends finished up by five
And she would always call me to come out at night
And drive and talk for hours until one of us got tired
I don't wanna hear about the things he said
No I don't wanna talk about your future plans
But you know I'll always listen I just do it as a friend

Can't you see
Me wrestle with my oceans
Devoid of all emotion
Every time you bring him up
Can't you see
Me hollowed out and different
No I'm not a bitter person
But I'll never be enough

I ran out of reasons just to see you more
Been drinking every weekend to not feel ignored oh
Maybe with enough someday I'll get this off my chest
You were turning 20 on a Wednesday night but
All our friends were missing they had work at nine
So we drank a little too much til the sun had start to rise

Can't you feel
Me wanna pull you closer
Just kiss me when your sober
And then I'll really know
Can't you see
That my open arms are hurting
How I long for the uncertain
In a space I can't control

It's you that I've been waiting for, for all my life
It's you that I keep wanting in the dead of night
It's you
It's always been you
It's you I wanna talk to bout my shitty day
It's you that I rely on just to numb some pain
It's you
It's you oh
It's you I wanna kiss and put the kids to bed
It's you wanna hold until the day I'm dead
It's you
It's always been you

It's you but I'm too scared that if I let you know that
This might be the day that you let me go
It's true
It could never be you