Losing You

Your June was like a December
But ice is just as powerful as fire
I couldn't keep my composure
When everything I'd known in you just died

Where would I be if you didn't run?
If you didn't hide?
If you were still here with me in my bedroom tonight?
If we were in love?
If we didn't fight?
If you showed for a second that you wanted to try?

I was lost in you
Drowning in your cold September tune
Every cost was bitter and so wintry blue, but
Who knew that I'd find myself in losing you?

You were such an elegant liar
My mind was opened and my world bright
But you crushed every dream upon that dreamer
Then my heart was broken and my hands tied

Where would I be if you hadn't called?
If you hadn't lied?
If you were still here fucking up the thing that felt right?
Where do we go
When beautiful dies?
'Cause the parade didn't outlive the rain
This time

I was lost in you
Drowning in your cruel February tune
Every cost was bitter and so wintry blue, but
Who knew that I'd find myself in losing you?

Watch me fall
Passing by
Is it all
In my mind?
Waiting up
Every night
But you were gone
With the tide
I was left
In the rubble
Am I alive? I ask as I stumble
Back and forth still thinking it over
But losing you brought me so much closer

Now I've crossed the blue
On the other side, I'm finding my way through
I get lost but I'm not alone now, there's so much I can do
'Cause I found myself in losing you