Thoughts Of A Dying Astronaut

I'm choking on the atmosphere
All alone all alone out here
Stellar oceans of tragedy
A bleak wave that was meant for me
Infinite and powerless
The galaxy about me spread
A sombre blanket for the dead
I wrap the stars around me

Let not the young be smothered out
Before they do quaint deeds and fully find their pride
It's the world's one crime the lie the false divine
Cold limp and bleak forever leaden-eyed

Let not the years speak ill of them
They're just points of light in the firmament
One day they blink out forever gone
Lost in hope that their memory will carry on

Oh did I rage so needlessly?
Did I starve so dreamlessly?
Did I sow but seldom reap?
Did I live or die like sheep?

One breath consumed in distress
As I look with hope to good providence
Regrets remain and coalesce
Of a life that I cannot now redress

How sweet the rain to a thirsty mouth
How vile the thoughts that I spit out
All of my duration laid bare
In the delicate finality of death I'm ensnared

Hey now
Don't want you to fear anymore
Hey now
Don't want you to fear anymore
Once was the years to come
Just a dream of the fortunate son
Once was thy will be done
Just a game of life with a zero sum

The minutes are wasting away
Alone my mind is a haze
All that I could have done
All I should have become
Now lost to me

I painted over the world with lies
To keep the fear at bay just to stay alive
I should have worn my skin and not the disguise
But karma will always pay you in kind
Pay in kind

I used to speak the words you wanted to hear
With empty heart and forked tongue
I never sang the melody of all that I have loved
This is the final refrain my song is sung

Choking on the oxygen
The time has come
For me
What I would give to have it all again
Infinite and powerless
Powerless
The stars wont weep
For me
What I would give to have it all again
To have it all again
To have it all again