THE REAL JOKE

Can't believe I cried when God told me no
Desensitized by how you treating me low
My heart patched to my jacket -
God knows I be keepin' people too close
I know my feelings don't always match with how things go and I -
Been feeling torn, heart got me in trauma
Wanna pull it off my uniform
Used my heart, now you trynna stab it with a sword
Can't be mad at me cause you fell on weapons that you had formed
Talkin' bout toxic men and how they actin' these days
Mad at how they move but then runnin' the same with these plays
God told me to dub it - glad I obeyed
Cause now I see - you've been movin' with me in a hurtful way (yuh)
Now that I truly see - you cool with using me
Going out your way to hurt my character - disturb my peace
Can't believe I was a fool - showing the deepest parts of me
God said trust no man, after this I do agree

I hate how pain always brought the easiest songs I wrote
Been through a lot, I guess that's why I'm writin' them the most
You wanted me for a side so I had to let you go
I forgive you but can't be friends after what you spoke
Seven months; you sayin' I'm someone you don't even know
Seven months; I showed who I am, you pretended fasho
Trynna act like I'm the kid - you immature fasho
You say you laughing at me, but truth is you the real joke

You've been the real joke
All this time you've been the real joke - oh
You the one who's the real joke
You've been the real joke
You the real joke - joke

Told a friend of mine I got no animosity
God gave me that heart, but it's time I start worryin' bout me
I've had girls who looking hot - but then actin' cold
Different body, different interests but still got the same soul
Said I been roaming through the city with a heart of gold
So why they actin' like I'm roaming with a heart of coal?
Either way it's feeling like my heart is getting hardened -
Sucking up my energy, can barely get my friendships started
Don't want no friends I want family
You ain't get yo way and now you trynna start a calamity
I been out the way and now you trynna see how to handle me
Trynna say I called so I would screenshot my log
And you'd see who could get involved
You might as well go calling this resolved -
Can't get my time no mo
Diamonds get pressured underground, but if I'm always shaking dust
Eventually I won't be worried bout that shine no mo
So you got to go

I hate how pain always brought the easiest songs I wrote
Been through a lot, I guess that's why I'm writin' them the most
You wanted me for a side so I had to let you go
I forgive you but can't be friends after what you spoke
Seven months; you sayin' I'm someone you don't even know
Seven months; I showed who I am, you pretended fasho
Trynna act like I'm the kid - you immature fasho
You say you laughing at me, but truth is you the real joke

You've been the real joke
All this time you've been the real joke - oh
You the one who's the real joke
You've been the real joke
You the real joke - joke