Just a Gimmick

I feel stupid asking "am I what you want?"
I could be a different version
Pass the textbook, I'll start learning

Oh, to my face, you say there's nothing you would change
But I hear all the whispering
Every single word stays lingering

I know I'm never enough
Swear to god I've tried
I'll never be who you want
Oh, am I doing fine?

Messy, outdated
How long can I fake it?
Selfish, frustrating
Give me another way, but
I'm just a gimmick
You can use when it's fitting
Useless and jaded
I'm all these things
But if I close my eyes, no it don't exist
(Ah-ah-ah-ah)
It's repeating, overthinking
Have the same conversation with the ceiling
If you really hate me, can't you just cut me off clean?

'Cause I know I'm never enough
Swear to god I've tried
I'll never be who you want
Oh, am I doing fine?

Messy, outdated
How long can I fake it?
Selfish, frustrating
Give me another way, but
I'm just a gimmick
You can use when it's fitting
Useless and jaded
I'm all these things
But if I close my eyes, no it don't exist
I can't be the only one who feels like shit

(Ah-ah-ah-ah)
How long can I fake it
(Ah-ah-ah-ah)
I've gotten too outdated
(I'm just a gimmick you can use when it's fitting)
How long can I fake it
(Ah-ah-ah-ah)
I know that you'll replace me

I feel stupid asking "am I what you want?"
I know I'm not enough
Guess I always knew that though