Pastsick!

I said "You peaked in high school"
Well, I peaked on the side of the freeway at 3 a.m.
Happy new year
Mark the new start of a mess that we created
So I've been drinking too much and it's been eating me up
How I'm just dying to see you
Not even keeping in touch
Just losing time
Got bad at hiding our feelings
I know you've seen it enough
And you had tried to fix me
As I used my mind against me
And I tried so hard for this
Everything I never wanted
And anything to push her farther
I guess I've got to die a little bit to feel alive

And I just wanna get past this
Point of life
Tried to rip it like a bandage
So tell me why
It still feels the way it has been after all this time
You can see it in my eyes when I keep it all inside
'Til the memories get me pastsick
Nothing good has ever lasted
But its Better said and done than if I hadn't
Past tense
Sweeter than molasses, but surely it was bad if it's a habit
Surely it was bad if it's a habit
Surely it was bad

I guess I'm just a dumb fuck kid
I've got a guilty conscience
I fall in love with toxic then I wonder how we got this far along
I never thought that I would start the new year with
"I never wanna see you again"
But I can't seem to get you out of my head
And I've gotten kind of sick of all the stress
And I hate to say it, but I don't think we'll make it
So I guess you're just another new regret

And as hard as it may be it's for the best
And as hard as it may be

Ya, I just wanna get past this
I tried to rip it like a bandage
But it still feels the way it has been after all this time
You can see it in my eyes when I keep it all inside
'Til the memories get me pastsick
Nothing good has ever lasted
But its Better said and done than if I hadn't
Past tense
Sweeter than molasses, but surely it was bad if it's a habit

Ya, past tense
Sweeter than molasses, but surely it was bad if it's a habit