Textbook

When I was young
I wished upon a star
I wished that everything would be okay
And someday I could run so far

From that town
That never-changing town
Where all my dreams had gone to die
And happiness could not be found

I worked hard
I ventured alone
I climbed the ladder just like I'd been told

I did it by the textbook
I checked everything off the list
So where's that glow they said I'd find?
My warm eternal bliss

Oh, that textbook
I played my whole life by their rules
And I can't keep pretending that this life is one I'd choose

Oh, that textbook, I ripped it up—it's through
That textbook, I ripped it up–it's through

Am I still too young
To reach that glory in the sky? (glory, glory, glory)
How do I build a ladder
When I've only learned to climb? (climb, climb, climb)

I miss that town, that never-changing town
I wish that I could just be happy
With a life on a solid ground

But I'll work hard
I'll venture alone
I'll travel far into the great unknown

I did it by the textbook
I checked everything off the list
So where's that glow they said I'd find?
My warm eternal bliss

Oh, that textbook
I played my whole life by their rules
And I can't keep pretending that this life is one I'd choose

Oh, that textbook, I ripped it up—it's through
That textbook, I ripped it up–it's through

It was summer:
I watch the sunrise through a dusty bathroom window
And I curse the light for floating there
Suspended in its limbo
Just watching me
Just taunting me
Just wishing me well
"Do you think that I'm afraid of you?"
"Do you think that I care?"

24, two degrees
Couldn't tell you why or what I want from me yet
Mr. Sun, show me how
To rise upon a life that feels profound

Oh, that textbook
I checked everything off the list
So where's that glow they said I'd find?
My warm eternal bliss

Oh, that textbook
I played my whole life by their rules
And I can't keep pretending that this life is one I'd choose

Oh, that textbook, I ripped it up—it's through
That textbook, I ripped it up–it's through