Leukemia / AM

So lost, now you're gone, my darling
Oh, my misery
We were so special, honey, don't forget about me
No, nothin' can save you
Not out in the sea
Guess that's where you goin'
Somewhere without me

I promised that I wouldn't stress about you
Feelin' better now, I learned to live without you
Can't believe it's been some months without your name in blue bubbles
Texts faded 'cause these old habits brought on new troubles
The projection was exhaustin', I was forced to find my fortune
Why I suffered many losses, think depression was accosted, I was skinnier
Lookin' back, I barely ate my share without me tearin' up
My momma ain't around, but somehow I feel I'm hearin' her

Tellin' me to distance from this girl, I grew to be with her
She ain't like my brother or my best friend, why I'm feedin' her?
When the money came in, I put dollars on a dream with her
She would beat me down, while any girl would wanna see me up
Cryin' on the phone with cous', I can't believe she'd keep me up
Accused of me some shit I didn't do and that would eat me up
Know she date a legend, but she treat me like leukemia
I was down bad and now there's visions of me leavin' her

You said it was my fault because somebody stole my bike
You hated, and the truth is there as much I did dislike
I'm fightin' intuition, bitchin' how I sleep at night
Assaulted my emotions, wasn't kosher or polite
You treat me like a dog and try to pigeonhole my plight
Pillow-talkin', peace offerings, put restrictions on my price
And I ain't mad, I got a million overnight
Now I'm back out on the market, shawty's talkin' to me nice

But I was never petty, girl, I'll never spill on beans
I'ma say, you can't love, you let somebody intervene
What's the verdict?
Had to shake this residue 'cause my new girl, she don't deserve it
And I'll be ready if she really want the smoke again
Even tried to put a wedge between me and my closest friend

I just freeze indeed
Did ya forget what you meant to me?
I will pray until my knees are sore, I'll be on the floor
I'll be prayin' for you (I'll be prayin')
So I'll let your love subside
And wipe the tears that fall from my eyes
No more feelin', lost, confused
I'll be prayin' for you, ooh-ooh
I'll be prayin' for you

This kinda shit don't really happen, so I had to rap it
Had to circle back on shawty, surely put this plan in action
I'm at the yard, I told my mans, this black girl, she had me tranced
Then a couple months later, we at Berries holdin' hands
You found me, ain't have to set no boundaries
My AM in the AM and every night you spent around me, it was chemistry
Shawty somethin' sweet, just like this melody
Your smile complete, pullin' back them sheets, your kisses settled me

My last was in a spiral, wouldn't be here by a long shot
Made me a mimosa when my song dropped, off top
She better than my last and she don't smoke but got me gassed
A sense of humor like my brothers and ain't afraid to peak a laugh
And God brought you to me, prayed for such a loyalty
She walk with grace, and every girl replaced would look disorderly
There's more to me than Coachella, played the stage, a go-getter
You the one that drove me there, your presence made me perform better

So intense with open hands, your family mine, won't go against
Overjoyed, and she ain't have to drive me there on both weekends
Spicy food, there ain't much I'd like to do, outside of you
Give you space to concentrate on yoga moves
Chest big, fit physique, a Virgo like Beyoncé, sheesh!
Showered at her crib, ain't have hot water for a couple weeks
Intelligent and not a bitch, my ride or die and I love her speech
Knew you were somebody special 'cause you been my common theme

She my jigsaw puzzle piece
She would bring me love and peace
She the one I'm waitin' for
I'm glad I am the one you meet
(Glad I am the one you meet)

I just freeze indeed
Did ya forget what you meant to me?
I will pray until my knees are sore, I'll be on the floor
I'll be prayin' for you (I'll be prayin')
So I'll your love subside
And wipe the tears that fall from my eyes
No more feelin', lost, confused
I'll be prayin' for you, ooh-ooh
I'll be prayin' for