Deliver Me

Yeah
Sometimes it feels like I'm drowning and trying reach the shore
People shouting from the banks but really what you speaking for
If you ain't diving in to help debating how I'm probably living
Zero life rafts thrown but you gone criticize my swimming
Feel like the calling on my life I got is not convention
Reach those that far away and not neglect tradition
I'm empathetic cause of things that I done been through
And prove the grace of God extends beyond your simpleton views
I'm fighting off my insecurities but it's hectic
Trying to figure why the simplest no can make me feel rejected
Said I'd be better dad than mine when I had my kids
Trying to raise my children to be stronger than their daddy is
It's crazy how I see myself, wish I saw how God does
My weakness keep me in prayer, guess that's how God does
Just want to save others, begging God to save myself
Sometimes I go out too deep out here, I ain't safe myself
When my arms get tired and I need Your help
Let your living water be the very thing I breathe in next
Yeah
And It's still impact over income
Still gotta pay these bills and get these ministry funds
Full time faith walk for a decade and some change now
I jumped off prayed that God build the plane on the way down
I never been without God provided every step I took
But that fear of failure always crept in left me shook
Imposter syndrome alive and well I compare to others
Randomly hits like a wave of doubts that I'm standing under
What decisions I avoided I was scared to make
Things God wanted me to do I got in His way
Still came it a long way still ain't where I want to be
Still thanking God cause I still I ain't where I'm gonna be
I'm focused on my change He been focused on my change for real
Too busy seeing other things to notice how I changed for real
Sat me down in therapy evaluated things for real
Told me stand firm on Him and that's my plan for real