Level the Playing Field

I'm the worst thing you've ever seen
Every time I try to say what I mean
Take it how you will, no one understands this
Take it how you will, no one deserves
To see who I am
To see who I am
To see who I am

I'll take it day to day
When it's so far away
Can't be myself with the pressure it takes
Cause I hate who I was
All the mistakes
There's no moving forward

This can't be how it goes
This can't be how I feel
It's so unfair trying to level the playing field
This life's a game
Do what it takes
When does time run out?

Frustrated, I can't seem to reel it in
It's all too much
Every time I try to pack it in
I'm fucking losing it
It's time to bury this
Bury all this

Redemption
Has lost its point
Excuses pile up
This happens every time
Just let it be and set me free
Please just set me free

I'm a loaded gun
With a hairpin trigger
I'm a full clip
With a soft smile, just bigger
I can't take any more
Time to let it unload
I can't take any more
Time to let it unload
Unload
Unload

I try to explain myself
I do this all wrong
Don't try

I'm the worst thing you've ever seen
Every time I try to say what I mean
Take it how you will, no one understands this
Take it how you will, no one deserves
No one deserves
No one