Fundamentally Unlovable

Sorry, I evidently can't keep myself occupied enough to never
Think of you and me and the way it used to be
Not knowing better that no one lives forever

I spent the weekend letting go of everyone I used to know
And we'll never meet again, and we'll never meet again
Shit-faced and holing up alone, scraping the splinters off the bone
And we'll never meet again, we'll never meet again

Shredding my stuff, wasting another Christmas counting down
The new years in a cave, scratching walls that never break
Sick of the throwbacks, your chicken rice and Prozac

'Cause I spent the weekend letting go of everyone I used to know
And we'll never meet again, and we'll never meet again
Shit-faced and holing up alone, scraping the splinters off the bone
And we'll never meet again, and we'll never meet again

I woke up this one time in the middle of the night
You were sleeping to my left, blanket wrapped around your thighs
And I remember looking at you and thinking
Just how hard this would kill me

I didn't mean to run away, it's just a bad habit of mine
Stay up with Paris, France, but England's always slightly out of time
Stare up at the moon for hours, pretend as if to hold you in the eye
Punch in the same 11 numbers just to hear you say goodbye (it's never perfect)

I wrote a big, dramatic letter on the night you went away (I'll never rest in peace)
Wanting to be a stone but more than that, I wanted you to stay (it's never perfect)
Reduced a lifetime to a page of what I needed you to know (I'll never rest in peace)
That from the start, I knew that nothing else could ever feel so