I Could

I could tell you how I feel but it wouldn't matter anyway
I could show you something real but I think we better stay this way
Cuz you, know that I'm a fuckin mess and I gotta lotta things on my plate
I know you say you understand but if you did then you would prolly never stay

I admit it to you, I got issues
Ain't that a phrase that every common human being uses
I've been gaslighted
I've been lied to
That don't negate from the fact that I really want you
I wanna hear your story
I wanna learn your ways
I wanna fall in love with what you do and what you say
I truly wanna see you grow in beauty everyday
Spoil you and show affection everything will be okay
But I'm broken and I'll prolly never trust the same
I don't blame you if you're like the rest and run away
To find another that ain't hurting in the same way
So I thought I'd say

I could tell you how I feel but it wouldn't matter anyway
I could show you something real but I think it's best we stay this way
Cuz you, know that I'm a fuckin mess and I gotta lotta things on my plate
I know you say you understand but if you did then you would prolly slip away

I wish that I could love without the parts that are damaged
And maybe I would have a wife or better bonds with my parents
I'd never second guess a friendship or distrust in your answers
But I let negativity spread through my body like cancer
And I'm trying to fix it but I'm at constant conflictions
Cant trust nobody's decisions because my heightened intuitions
And I stay overthinking lately my self esteems sinkin'
And I try to stop drinking, I can never find a reason but
I could give you the best
I wanna give you it all
I just want to feel wanted despite of all of my flaws
Cuz I'm trying I promise
And that I'll never give up
I just hope that giving all of me will be always be enough but

I could tell you how I feel but it doesn't matter anyway
I could show you something real but I think we better keep it this way
Cuz you, know I was a fuckin mess and I had a lotta things on my plate
I know you say you understand and now you do we have gone our own ways
Goodbye



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Writer(s): Tristan Mallory
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