Zenith

Deadened senses to the code reds redefine the hurt
I'm stuck in circles reading lines in perpetuity
Feelin' cornered, overheating, over-eating
Beat myself into submission, then pretend the hurt is new to me
Only seek my validation in nudity
Self-employed, self-hate is a full-time, I do it dutifully
Only thought, underwater, overwhelming urge
To take every setback as the newest cue to leave

Been held together with duct tape and well wishes
Well, well, well, if it isn't the hell that I can't sell my written
Even if the music's love
I'm still stricken that this might just be a side story
I'll one day tell my children
Another day, I wake up to sunny brick walls
And memories of everything I didn't finish yesterday
Already like 27 steps behind
I don't think I'll join the 27 Club 'til I'm like 35

Blocking out the sun and now my vision's going blank
Everybody nodding off, world's feeling like the tranq
Tryna fix my problems with a ratchet and a crank
So indebted baby, threw a temper tantrum in the bank

Putting forks inside the gears, I'ma stop you in your tracks
Started bleeding from my ears, but this song just made a stack
Pillie popping veteran, my ego starts to crack
On the field, frontlines, I'm the first to take the flak

Elastic man, my hands they span
Across a world to wrap it up and crush it up
I'm such a fuck-up, couldn't climb the first step to the 12-step program
And I study, and I cram to pass with flying colors
But a bird that's grounded finds the skies outside depressing
Isn't it when things are different are the scariest
Embarrassed just to tell my people that I'm jealous
Said it once said it twice, I don't do things outta love, do it outta spite
Nothing makes no sense, I'm always getting chained to vice

And I apologize but know it's not enough
Let the chains tug, not enough
Infernal engine letting off a buzz
Use my grief over what I did to fuel the flame
Things will never be the same, yet I always wish they were
Late at night, I toss and turn, In between two ferns
Have no courage to determine what I learned

Blocking out the sun and now my vision going blank
Everybody nodding off, worlds feeling like the tranq
Tryna fix my problems with a ratchet and a crank
So indebted baby, threw a temper tantrum in the bank

Putting forks inside the gears, I'ma stop you in your tracks
Started bleeding from my ears, but this song just made a stack
Pillie popping veteran, my ego starts to crack
On the field, frontlines, I'm the first to take the flak



Credits
Writer(s): Nicholas Allen, Sean Emmerson, Stef M
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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