Until Now

I've grown tired of carrying this karma 'round
Roots burled malformed from deep below the ground
Damaged metastasized throughout the sacral scar
I keep learning these lessons so damn hard

I've grown tired of carrying this karma 'round
Lost guts broken heart
Can't even make a sound
Too much for my mind
I have been overwhelmed

I've found my pride on this side of the fence
Greener grass blew back, a foreseen consequence
Asleep dreaming through this catastrophe
Done standing on the sideline of this war waged on me

And I've done nothing
I've done zero
I've done nothing
Until now

I've grown tired of carrying this monkey 'round
Black kettle killer pot has all my roots bound
Couch-locked potato chip self-love this sacral scar
Reflex took my breath Oh, I've dabbed too hard

I've grown tired of carrying this monkey 'round
Unhinge, what's left ever to be found
No choice, save myself I'll become hardened steel
They'll never understand, That I am fucking real

I will step on every crack in the walk I see
To break the backs of those who come at me
My kind wants to live, love, and be free
Done standing on the sideline of this war waged on me

And I've done nothing
I've done zero
I've done nothing
Until now

You've turned my life into a battleground
Roots boiled and dried before the crystals ground
Shrapnel inflames include the sacral scar
I've lost, your grip goes too damn far

You've turned my life into a battleground
Prepared to face death, stockpiled sonic rounds
Crushed heart, allies ignore all her pleas
Because the attacks come incessantly

I will choke anyone who stands opposed to me
The gas will displace the air too fast for you to flee
A thought of regrets flashes fast right through their minds
Why did I join this cult
These beliefs were never mine

And I've done nothing
I've done zero
I've done nothing
Until now