Too Damaged

I was just thinking that wouldn't it be great
If I could wake up one day to find that I had a clean slate
Cause lately I've been weighed down by all my past mistakes
Maybe I'm just too damaged to be saved
Once I could feel true joy but now that time has passed
I sit and wait counting down to see how long this all can last
Cause surely I'll have to break from all the pain that I've amassed
I know I'm just too damaged to be saved

You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself
How long before I get to be someone else?
You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself
How long before I get to be someone else?

I'm so deep in my head I can't find my way out
Today my thoughts are so loud I swear that you just heard me shout
I wonder what is a symptom and what just makes me deranged
I'm just too damaged to be changed

You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself
How long before I get to be someone else?
You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself
How long before I get to be someone- someone-

I feel dirty and broken
Filled with fears left unspoken
Not sure I can still take it
Paste my smile on and fake it
People can hear your dangerous thoughts
Stare at the stove and check the knobs
Rock back and forth against your will
Fight to discern what's even real
Think of the ways that you could die
Feel guilty with no reason why
If they truly saw me, they couldn't bear it
Crown of depravity - see how I wear it?
Tell that voice that it's wrong
I don't believe it for long
Look for ways to escape
But there's no one to save me

I'm just too damaged to be saved
I'm just too damaged to be saved
I'm just too damaged to be saved
I'm just too damaged to-

I know it's not rational
I know it's in my head
But sometimes I feel that I'd be better off dead



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