F**k that Noise

The sheer magnitude of the universe makes me anxious
I've got like two or three different weights of my blankets
To minimize the overwhelming feeling
Like it's all in my head
And it can get to be so much, so much, so much so that
I'm always this close to a total breakdown
Wondering if I'd be missed if I was not around
Then slapping myself figuratively across my face
Because those dark thoughts don't feel like home to me

And I am crying in my bedroom on a Saturday night
With so much time on my hands but with no soul in sight
And everyone just tells me enjoy your alone time Alexa
Dude, I've got more alone time than I know what the fuck to do with
Seriously I've seen a lot of movies by myself

And this is getting so, getting so, getting so damn ridiculous
And I am so, I am so, I am so, I am so damn particular
About everything, I overthink, understatement of the year
What is normal considered these days?

But fuck that noise
Fuck all that drama with ignorant boys
Fuck all that death and destruction I hear on the news
Fuck the state of the world, since it's always confusing that noise
Will drive you insane if you give it the choice
Why is it hurting me
It's always hurting me
I wish I weren't me,
Wai Wai Wai Wai Wait
I love myself

This world is made of atoms and I am out of my mind
Held captive by the sneaking suspicion that I'm out of time
After reading all these books that tell us thoughts can be a crime
Arrest me now since I am guilty
Should put me away for life
Can't seem to keep my mouth closed
While my heart is here wide open
Double jeopardy, you can't break what's already been broken
Two roads they diverged, and I followed the most chosen
Then went back on my decision since well... fuck it

I'm a human when it comes to the day to day operations
I'm alien when forced in unwanted social situations
I am extrovert and introvert all rolled up into one
You'd think a constant state of split persona would be more fun
Then my thoughts start to wander to people I'll never meet
Think it's time to diagnose my adult ADHD
It's common in women to never know what they need
But just a little more sunshine, and a lot more weed

So silence all the critics, give yourself those five stars
You're the only one who knows what it took to be where you are
Manifest all that good in every chamber of your heart
Don't let one review do so much damn damage

So fuck that noise
Fuck all that drama with ignorant boys
Fuck all that death and destruction I hear on the news
Fuck the state of the world, since it's always
Confusing that noise
Oh that noise
Made another mistake
Not much more I can take
I'm praying for sanity for sanity's sake
Through all that noise

Check check can you hear me
I'm singing to you
I'm singing to you