Like My Father

I'm being exhausting again, nothing new
He doesn't deserve it but he's picking up the pieces
I'm being annoying again, nothing new
He'll leave in the night when he gets tired of being patient
In my defense
My family's complicated
And I do my best
But trying's overrated
When there's nothing left to save
So I push it all away
And I don't believe him when he tells me i'm pretty
Tell myself that he doesn't need me
I need him like the air I breathe
He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty
Say things I don't mean then say sorry
I need him the way I need water
But if he's anything, anything like my father
Then he's gonna leave me
Cry in the bathroom again, nothing new
Trying to keep quiet's always harder than it used to
He's asking what's wrong, I say 'nothing new'
Lying, 'I'm just tired', but he always sees right through
My feelings aren't safe
So I'll take them to the grave
And I don't believe him when he tells me i'm pretty
Tell myself that he doesn't need me
I need him like the air I breathe
He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty
Say things I don't mean then say sorry
I need him the way I need water
But if he's anything, anything like my father
Then he's gonna leave me
Hangs like a dead weight on my neck
Ripples like a butterfly effect
I need to, I need to remember
That he's nothing, nothing like my father
He's not gonna leave me
But I still don't believe him when he tells me I'm pretty
Tell myself that he doesn't need me
I need him like the air I breathe
He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty
Say things I don't mean then say sorry
I need him the way I need water
But if he's anything, anything like my father
Then he's gonna leave me