Mess

I used to hold my head a little differently
But over the years it's got the better of me
Jealousy, slowly takes its toll, to a place I know I can't control
I've stopped to think of what has lead me here
A time when hope just never seemed sincere
Some clarity, a broken dream, the realisation, it's not for me

I think I'm getting better
I think I'll finally see

I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me
Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose
I can't figure out, I can't put it down
That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me

So now I'm here, and if tomorrow I'm not
Whose been the one around me really calling the shots?
It's been a god damn nightmare feeling the same
Year after year, but not saying a fucking thing

I think I'm getting better
I think I finally see

I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me
Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose
I can't figure out, I can't put it down
To another night of standing all alone in the crowd
That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me

Best for me

I've been beaten again
Left blown in the wind
I'll never say never again
Say never again

I've been a god damn mess but it's the god damn best for me
Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose
I can't figure out, I can't put it down
To another night of standing all alone in the crowd
That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me

I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me
Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose
Cause can't figure out, and I can't put it down
To another night of standing all alone in the crowd
Cause I'm a god damn mess but it's the god damn best for me