Roadblocks

Yeah, wasted times it's just how it goes
By myself guess I'm better alone
Holding on to my faith and my hope
That things will change when they probably won't
At least that's what I think when I'm at home
And I'm on my phone and mindlessly scroll
As if the algorithm is the cure to the broken parts of me that nobody knows

To be real, I break down when it hits me
Being happy and sad, damn, it's getting sickening
Knowing those I used to keep close
Flipped and turned ghost, they no longer with me
Distant memories I can't get back
Wish I could take a stroll and visit my past

And relive the moments that I had
Yeah, relive the moments, I
So much wasted time, I won't fake I'm fine
I won't wait in line for someone to give me
Some basic advice that I can't apply
'Cause my state of mind's a bottomless feeling
I heard it all, so, yeah, you can save me the grief

Look, a MacBook and a XLR mic is all that I need
A therapist will never know more than me
I just hope my art will land in your feed
Fighting this algorithm is so tiring

'Cause it's designed to control what you see
I need a minute, I just need to breathe
Lately I'm tripping, don't know what I need
This time it's different, I been keeping my distance
I just can't leave, cause

I keep on hitting these roadblocks guess I'll walk
To the place that I need to with my thoughts
Navigation is wasteful, I'm still lost
I'm still lost, I'm still lost

Still lost at a crossroads
Seeing the world full of lost souls
Life is hell but my heart's cold
Let's see how fast this car goes
Driving through the city just to relax
I don't need no pity 'cause I understand
Nobody can fix me, because I have to conquer what's in me, or I'ma spaz and lose it

I gotta tighten some loose ends
I'm tired of losing
I trust nobody
Nobody I'm cool with, I had fake friends
Make me look foolish
But that is on me, I don't play the blame game
I find it useless, I mean what do you do when
Nobody wants to owns up to what they're doing?

It's too much energy to explain and prove it
I rather ride solo, and work on my music
The stress that people bring can paralyze movement, I can't
Let them do that, I'd rather stay busy and get on the map
Holding on to you, it sounds like a trap
Easier for me if I'm not attached, I

Woke up, feeling like this, I can't
Avoid all the feelings I have
I know I'm not perfect, I am worthless
I'm negative, my bad
I shouldn't be thinking like that
I shouldn't be thinking like (thinking like that, nah)

I keep on hitting these roadblocks, guess I'll walk
To the place that I need to with my thoughts
Navigation is wasteful, I'm still lost
I'm still lost, I'm still lost