If I Made It Easy

Every time I bleed, I lose ability to heal
Maybe I received all of the pain incessantly

I'm used, every part of me
I'm bruised and I cannot breathe
No one is my company
I watched everybody leave

If I showed you all of my scars, then would you like my honesty?
Would you go through all of my shards when I break down entirely?
I always pray to be with you eternally
But you'll only stay with me if I made it easy

I always pray (I always pray)
To be the best that I can be (that I can be)
'Cause you'll only stay (only stay) with me
If I made it easy (if I made it easy)

When I was twenty, someone played with my heart (oh)
That was the day, I chose to play in the dark (play in the dark)
And now I'm thirty, I be fuckin' so hard
The biggest misstep that I did was that I took it too far

'Cause I only hate them until they become all of my men (ooh)
I only hate them until I become a part of them (yeah)
I can't believe I am as greedy as he was to her
I freely do men massacre
They feed me till the crash occurs

I'm their little history
Then they will get rid of me (will get rid of me)
No one is my company
I watched everybody leave

If I showed you all of my scars
Then would you like my honesty? (oh, would you like it?)
Would you go through all of my (oh) shards when I break down entirely?
I always pray (I always pray) to be with you eternally
But you'll only stay with me if I made it easy

Oh, if I made it easy (if I made it easy)
Woah, woah, if I made it easy

I always pray (I always pray) to be the best that I can be
'Cause you'll only (oh) stay with me if I made it easy

If I made it easy
If I made it easy

Ooh ohh, no, oh, no

I always pray to be the best that I can be
'Cause you'll only stay with me if I made it easy

Can I play something? yeah, okay
So, you wanna play with me?
Ha, I wanna play with you too
But you know, I gotta see something first, yeah
I wanna know if it's big enough for me, yeah
So, can you show it?
Yeah, I wanna see, ahh
What the fu-

Hey, hey, no, yeah
No, hey, yeah, ohh, ooh

Yo, I'm on my twink era
My asshole pink era
I got five men wantin' me back, in their *NSYNC era
Fuck like I blink era
So don't you interrupt
I got five men breakin' my back, yeah, that's my kink, be rough

Don't blame me if I do this shit all over again
A pretty boy like me is set to fuck with every men (ah)
Oh you wanna be friends? Boy, I know you reachin'
You just wanna have a taste, then next day you'll be leavin'

'Cause I've seen it all
Ain't no way that you'd be different, you're predictable
If you can use me, I'll use you too, I might as well be involved
Nickname's Lucy, and I hope you knew I sold my fucking soul
Give me the fucking gold

I got the body, I got the mind
I get the money after I grind
You ain't my honey, you're never mine
But you should love me, or else you'll die

I know I'm cocky, I got the nerve
If I'm being naughty, fuck harder
The world is always fuckin' against me, bitch, I'm the main character

So, fuck you if you think you're pretty
I'm the only one who's pretty
Dominant ones come with me
You know why the hell I'm picky
Every day I gotta bounce on everything biggie

I'm notorious, I ain't DD
Do ménage's like I'm Nicki
I will never do a quickie
Ride again after you breed me
Bitch, if you like me you can suck my ass
Bitch, if you hate me you should suck my ass

Roll your fuckin' eyes if I give you that deepthroat
Buy a fuckin' ice, if you give me that c-note
I hope you realize, you're playing with a demon
What you heard about me, boy, it's prolly true

Who the fuck ever cares if I'm masc or effem?
I abuse power, get bars like FM
Still finna hear me serve bars in your FM
'Cause you never met a gay boy who can kill you, ah (ah)

How would you know that I breathe only for you, baby?
When I allowed you to go, boy, I feel that I have betrayed me
And now, I'm alone, I hope you're near, I swear that I will change me
Without you, I know, I'm never home

I'm sorry that I couldn't give peace when you're around me
But I won't cross the line even if they are talking loudly
I'll only make it right, I can't live seeing you without me
You're always my life, you are my home ('cause I never grew up)

How would you know that I breathe
Only for you, baby? (only for you) ('cause I never grew up)
When I allowed you to go, boy, I feel (oh)
That I have betrayed me ('cause I never grew up)
And now, I'm alone, I hope you're near
I swear that I will change me ('cause I never grew up)
Without you, I know, I'm never home
(I'm never home) ('cause I never grew up)

I'm sorry that I couldn't give peace when you're around me
(when you're around me) (cause I never grew up)
But I won't cross the line even if
They are talking loudly (oh) ('cause I never grew up)
I'll only make it right, I can't live
Seeing you without me (ah) ('cause I never grew up)
You're always my life, you are my home

But maybe I am just another crumbling pretty boy
I never knew my way
Drowning in my mistakes
Maybe I am just another crumbling city boy, ah
I'm just another fucking city boy
Maybe I am just another fucking pretty boy

Fucking pretty people