For October

Spreading out the top cloth on your table
I watch you set a candle for us
You said you were sober a couple nights ago
But you've been smoking again
And you'd just been crying

The light from the candle makes you look nice
We don't have to fix things, but we should try
And I got really fuckin mad at you, but it's fine
And you'll forgive me like you always do
Right?

The mornings get colder
Will this still hurt me when we're older?
I try and try to keep you satisfied

I love the way you see me
If I was prettier would you keep me?
Like heavy rain, you wash away my pride

Laying out the top sheet on your full size
Your eyes, they keep me held down while I'm in them
You said you loved me just a couple nights ago
And I can feel it, ooh, I can feel it

And in my clothes, you look so nice
Who you knew when you met me, was a child
And I wasn't everything that you hoped for, but it's fine
And it hurts now, but at the time, you didn't mind

I'm getting sober
Will you still love me when we're older?
While I try and try to keep you satisfied

I'm gone for October
But I'll keep you on my shoulder
Telling me what's wrong and what's right