Ecstasis

Another weekend in taxis
Ecstasis and no sleep
My body still trying to catch up
With the speed of my mind
The thoughts keep rushing by
So I make myself think less
With a little more substance
Wanna forget who I am
And where I came from
Forget about you, forget us
Forget our bleak outcome
I hang with some boys in clubs you've never been in
'Cause sometimes the antidote is just a different kind of poison

And where do I go when the party is over?
Going hour 42 and almost feeling sober
Yet not quite enough to not long for your touch
But how many more times
Can I try to make this last?

Baby
I am lost in a state of chemical reverie
So make me
The scapegoat for every awful thing you ever said to me
And now I can't see what's in front of me
So I just look back without regret
And tomorrow sure as morning comes
You'll find me in somebody else's -

And the night's fading fast
As I chase a fading past
With every fleeting connection
Could've been one to last
You wanna tell me who I am
And how fast I should go
Wanna dictate my rhythm
But it's four on the floor
I wake up in a haze with a stranger by my side
As the second morning breaks
Just another wild ride
It could've all been different if you just had stepped up
But what do you expect from a man who cannot even love?

And where do I go when the party is over?
Going hour 42 and I'm still too sober
To deal with this
To get over your kiss
To let you be someone I could never miss

Baby
I am lost in a state of chemical reverie
So make me
The scapegoat for every awful thing you ever said to me
And now I can't see what's in front of me
So I just look back without regret
And tomorrow sure as morning comes
You'll find me in somebody else's bed