Leave This Bed

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

You're 22, so sure about me
You say I'm the love of your life (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)

I'm 20, figuring out who I want to be
I don't know if you're mine (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)

I just know we made a lot of mistakes together
Co-dependent, comically caught up
I'm not built for getting left behind
If you one day decide you don't wanna be here

Trying to cut the ties but not fully 'til there's no going back
My friends remind me that I have to detach
We don't belong, at least not right now
Forgot about all the dreams I had
Forgot I need to leave this bed

Nightmares of us in a plane crashing down
We were so focused on only each other
That we burned out

It hurts to see us moving on, and it hurts to not
It's been a full month but it's still a lot
I'm still nervously checking my phone
For messages that will never come

Trying to cut the ties but not fully 'til there's no going back
My friends remind me that I have to detach
We don't belong, at least not right now
Forgot about all the dreams I had

You still stay on the phone to make sure I come home alright
Biting my lips, my cheeks, the insides
We don't belong, but will we actually ever?
Forgot about the dreams I had
Forgot I need to leave this bed

But as they say "times fly by"
And "people change their minds"
And things go differently than you expected

I know we're trying to not lose each other
But it's more and more dawning on me
Maybe it's something we can't control
I need to heal

(...)

(Just to stay on that phone)

(Just stay on that phone)

I know it's over but stay on that phone
I know I said I don't want you to but stay on that
I know it's over but could you stay on that
I know I said I don't want you to but stay on that

You still stay on the phone to make sure I come home alright
Biting my lips, my cheeks, the insides
We don't belong, but will we actually ever?
Forgot about the dreams I had
Forgot I need to leave this bed